Most of us like to put our best self forward to the world. We don’t want people to know what a mess we truly are inside. At least, this is true for me.
Oh, I may share some of the icky things, but we all have certain secrets and thoughts that we rarely reveal to others, ourselves, or God. Even though God knows our every thought, we somehow fool ourselves into thinking He doesn’t know those ones.
I don’t do New Year’s Resolutions, but I do pick a phrase or theme for the year. My theme for 2013 is Open the Eyes of My Heart. I asked God to reveal areas in my life that were masked. Areas that were hindering my walk with Him and needed the work of the Holy Spirit.
When you ask God to work on your life, be prepared. Being refined by God is painful, but the healing that awaits you on the other side is worth it. [Tweet this]
In high school, I suffered from Bulimia. Thankfully, my mother got involved and my bout wasn’t very long or damaging. Or so I thought.
But I’ve always been very self-conscience about my weight. The gain of three pounds stresses me. I analyze pictures to see if I look fat. I know a lot of women feel this way, but there are times when I look at myself in the mirror and the emotions that overwhelm me aren’t normal. I know this, but I seem helpless to stop them.
While I don’t practice Bulimia and haven’t in over seventeen years, the scars run deeper than I care to admit. God knows what we need healed of, even when we don’t. And when I asked Him to open the eyes of my heart, He did.
An author at my literary agency asked for help in spreading the word when her book,The Eden Diet, was on Amazon’s Kindle list for free. I did and downloaded my own copy. And there it sat on my Kindle for a few weeks.
Until my next bout of self-pummeling cycled through. I started her book and was blown away by what I read. For years, I’ve allowed food to have a hold on me. I’ve let the world, healthy eating, and exercise regimens control my desire to be thin and fit. While these things in and of themselves aren’t bad, they weren’t fixing the real issue.
I was allowing myself to fixate on my diet, calories burned, and muscle gained, instead of focusing on God. The Eden Diet isn’t really a diet at all, it’s about recognizing the signals God designed to tell you when to eat. It’s about relying on Him and not yourself or the next weight loss craze.
I’ve been following the book for three weeks and every now and then my old thoughts rear their head. I start to slide back down the slippery slope, but then God opens the eyes of my heart and turns me back to Him.
Because when you invite God to heal you, He rips the band-aid all the way off. God doesn’t do halfway healings. [Tweet this]
I don’t know what areas of your life need God’s touch. All of us our different and we serve a God who sees each of us where we are and meets each need accordingly. But I do know we all need healing. I invite you to ask God to open the eyes of your heart.
What has God healed you of? Are there areas He’s dealing with right now?